Saturday, Sept. 06, 2003 - 1:25 pm
Um... I'm sorry.
This relationship just isn't working for me.
I'm at www.dailypreciousness.org now. So change that bookmark.
It's been ages since I've written an entry. Wish I could say I'd been kidnapped by anti-squirrel operatives and seduced/gang-banged by the models of International Male catalog... but I've just been busy with work.
After a flurry of activity in early August, I managed to apply for a job at an Arlington school. (Arlington's a fairly well-off satellite community, just soutwest of DC.)
Three koi, two orange and one black, float in their tank just in front of my desk here at my present job. I will miss these little guys. And my friendly coworkers. Yes, they can be crabby and there's only one other person my age here, but it's been a good place for me for the last 1 1/2 yeras. I got a little teary-eyed on the way here this morning. Sarah Brightman was singing "The journey home" on the iPod and I got all wrapped up in the nostalgia-for-the-present fixation that I sometimes suffer from.
It's a peculiar emotion. The part of me that strives to live in the present moment is occasionally overtaken by my remember-neediness, so I get feedback from the not-too-distant future telling me to REALLY appreciate the present. It makes me melancholy, hopeful and future-nostalgic all at the same time. Emotionally, it's a shock to my system. That happened to me today as I was driving to work. Passing was difficult when my eyes were blurry.
On a happier note, the fish are happy and healthy. I just picture one of the kids breaking into the tank and committing a "Finding Nemo" style pescacide. I hope it happens before I go.
